My eyes squint as I stare straight up to the ceiling. Rubbing my eyes as the obtrusive sunlight penetrates through the sheer curtains. I begin tearing away at the cob-webs in my mind, slowly. I don’t move, I keep staring at the ceiling. Refusing to wake up fully JUST yet. I hear the sounds of birds outside and humming of a lawn-mower.
“Crazy fuckers” - Anyone that fucking motivated to mow a lawn this early in the morning MUST be nuts.
I raised my head so I could see what time it was on the alarm clock. Flop my head back down on my pillow and roll over to my side. Have you ever noticed small shadows?
Let’s say for sanity sake, you have a mouse in the house, maybe two, maybe three. You discount it as such. It’s just a mouse but you’re too freaking slow to actually see the mouse, you only see the shadow. You KNOW something just went by.
After all your not nuts, or you would be one of the moron’s out mowing grass before the dew had a chance to dry off the grass … that’s only had a chance to grow for two days anyway.
I rolled on my back, aggravated because I’d just missed that damn mouse again. I close my eyes and began to recall the dreams I had that night. Usually, I can’t recall those dreams. Normally I don’t have the luxury of not being rudely awakened by an alarm loud enough to wake up the whole neighborhood.
Yes its even louder than that fucking lawn mower.
Things came flooding through at once. Jumping one scene to the next as though I was fast-forwarding a show on the DVR, skipping commercials. None of it made much sense, as usual. One day I would be able to piece together the whole thing.
There was however a pleasant remembrance of a handsome stranger. I don’t know too many handsome men in the first place so dreaming about them does help ME escape a little bit.
You know how you get, if you’re a woman. Your significant other might be the cats-meow, but that ooh so hot guy you seen waiting at the check-out counter at the local Giggly Wiggly was just too damn adorable to be denied.
Yes, he enters your dreams and yes, you fuck him silly. You fuck him so hard that when you wake up in the morning and sit up in bed, it’s as though the “whole Trojan army just fucked you”.. or something like that. You smile, you get out of bed and you go make PB&J for the kids and head off to work, you can’t wait to go back to sleep that night!!
Before I get too far involved in this whole sharing my life-story bit, I guess I should say I’ve a crotch mouth.
Why would I want to escape and what would I want to escape from you might wonder? Assuming your life is perfect, mine is not.. so much so, but in reality, whose really is? I guess it is not sooo bad, but who has the right to say a girl can’t dream about a hot guy.
Anyway, back to my dream. It seems that it all takes place in an abandoned building. Not a warehouse mind you, but an old business whose time had ran its course. The building housed shelves and narrow walk-ways. Back in the day it was probably a store where you dreaded taking your children. Probably had knick-knacks easily knocked over with the brush of a winter coat from a child in awe looking at the pretty trinkets. Oops!
Yes I think – and I think hard, when it comes to my dreams.
I sensed that he was kneeling, not really sure to what or what was in front of him. I also sense despair. Very dark, very gloomy. A heavy feeling. I had an urgency. An urgency to help this handsome stranger.
“r-r-r-ring” Goes the phone. Any recollection instantly lost.. forever.
“Fucking hell!” I state as I clamor to my phone in the hallway. Yes, I have my phone in the hall-way outside my bedroom. Why? Well it’s not because I had a choice. There was no phone-jack in my “master” bedroom and who wants to traipse down a flight of steps to the kitchen? Not me.
On the other end of the phone was my best friend Judy that rudely interrupted my dreams. I wasn’t a happy camper considering how early it was, but it was fine I suppose. I hadn’t heard from her for about TEN hours.
She sounded desperate to meet up so we met at a small cafe in town. Where am I from? Oh I forgot to mention that didn’t I... actually there’s TONS I’ve not mentioned.
When I got there Judy seemed very frightened. As I sat down across from her at the tiny bistro style table that was situated outside the cafe`, Judy looked around as though she had expected someone to be watching her.
“So, what’s up Judy? What could possibly be this urgent to meet at this hour on a Sunday morning?”, I asked her as I placed my purse by my feet.
I couldn’t believe the shit that was coming out of her mouth. I just sat there with my arms folded, looking up at her over top of my glasses. She could sense I thought she was ridiculous and this only fueled the fire even more.
As she continued to tell me her tale, I acted as though I felt for her. I did in a sense. I also knew it was the only way she would slow down the words that were flowing out of her mouth.
I listened. I just sat and listened. Knowing full well, what she was referring to. The sensations she was feeling. The fright. I had been through it before and yes, strange shit happens when you fuck with shit you really shouldn’t fuck with.
I explained to her that she was over-reacting. I told her everything was going to be OKAY. She seemed to settle down just a little bit, because after all Judy trusted me with her life. She’s new, it soon too shall pass. (is a favorite saying of mine).
Once our “coffee” was over we parted ways. She got in her car and drove off and I got in mine and started back towards my house. On the way back to my house I noticed a man walking down the beautifully paved side walk. This street was particularly bright and cheerful. However, there was something darkening about it today. It was this man. This was the man from my fucking dreams!
When I glanced back at the road to watch the person in front of me and looked back at the sidewalk, the man was gone.
I stopped the car along the street and got out. I stepped up onto the sidewalk and chills shot through me like a bullet. I needed to physically step onto the sidewalk where I last saw this man. I needed to feel something. All I could feel however, was cold. It was seventy-nine degrees out, according to the time and temperature on the bank across the street from me.
I glanced at the keys I was holding in my hand. My hands were shaking. Such a strange scene for someone like me as I am someone that takes alot to rattle them. After all the things I’ve been through in my life, not alot bothers me anymore. Except those damn mice.
The mice, I thought. I really need to get me some mouse traps. I am not worried about snapping a mouse’s neck, so not particularly bothered as to whether I get a “humane trap”, or not. So I was going to stop at the local dollar store and grab some traps, but they weren’t open yet. Nothing in this town opens up until noon, except for coffee shops and churches.
I decided to just go visit with my mother for a while and see if she needed me to do anything for her. I’ll get those traps on the way home.
My mother was real happy to see me. Oddly enough we get along alot better than we did when I was growing up under her “wing” so to speak. More like friends than anything else. Our mother slash daughter bond had long been broken. Sigh, oh well, life goes on.
I spent the whole morning listening to her rattle on about my aunt who had hip surgery. About how exhausted my mother was and not feeling well. About how.. ooh this that and the other. Much too boring for the contents of this post.
Life was truly not that exciting in this town, but something tells me it’s about to change, in a huge way. Change is good, is it not? Don’t you welcome change? I’m not talking about bad changes, but good changes. Change in a monstrous way. Big changes. You get the idea. Stick with me here.
You’ve only JUST gotten into line for a ticket to the biggest baddest roller-coaster ride on the planet. The line is a long one, but I see you’ve brought a drink and have a few pieces of that hot steamy pretzel that’s JUST started getting hard. I would wipe that mustard off of your shirt that’s fallen there, but I can’t. What with the blood on my hands and all. That damn Judy.
God, don’t you just hate to have to hurt those you care about the most? Sometimes it just can’t be helped. The one you thought you could trust the most with the deepest darkest secrets ever. Then they just have to go and show fright, doubt and suspicion. To me, of all people. To me, for fuck-fakes!
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